Kiss the girls with a dash of stockholm

I really do have vivid dreams sometimes....

The first thing I remember is waking up in a dingy, but bright luxury hotel room.  I feel woozy and can't focus on much but I remember lots of white decor and red roses in a vase.  My arms hurt and I am really really thirsty.  I hear a man's voice to my left but can't understand him.  As my brain tries to make sense of what is happening, I hear the voice again. "Aye lass, you finally joining the land of the living?" in a thick Scottish accent.  

Adrenaline shot through me and I realize my arms were tied above my head, I am on a bed, and am lacking much clothing so I'm very cold. I started to struggle but every movement caused a searing pain in my shoulders. *how long have I been tied up?!?* "Oi quit squirmin or ya may pop a shoulder".

I tried to relax but I was freaking out.  When I tried to talk my throat was on fire and I winced.  "That's whatcha get fer scremin lik a banshee".  I squeezed my eyes shut *This can't be happening*.  

I am in a bath washing off.  It hurts to move and the soap burns my cuts & scrapes, but I feel so unclean.  I was crying but not vocalizing.  I had a knot on the back of my head and a busted lip.  My eyes still can't focus well, but I know the tiles in the bathroom are turquoise. *what happened?!?*

My captor(?) comes in with a towel and says I've been in there long enough.  As I stood to get out the world went sideways and I started to fall.  He caught me before I hit anything, "Dun do that, now! Yer no gud to me dead." *What....?*

Its days(?) later and we are arguing.  He's yelling at me and calling me a "Numpty".  I'm yelling back, we need something other than Ramen Noodles and crisps!!! He's in my face and I finally register his look somewhat but still not clear.  I just can't see his features.  I know he's older, like later 50's maybe, gray/white hair cut short-ish, and he's tall...VERY tall. He finally concedes and leaves me locked in the room.  It's a gorgeous room but its a mess and seems small but not like a back highway motel.  

We are having dinner many days(?) later and its nice *wtf*.  We are eating on the floor from paper plates but its a steak dinner with wine.  Well I had wine he had something whiskey-esque...? His accent got thicker as he drank and he threatened me physically and verbally numerous times, grabbing my wrist roughly and shoving me while calling me all kinds of unsavory things.  He was passed out in a chair and I went to the bathroom to put on clothes that weren't Sexy Jammies so that I could escape.  I had the keys in my hand and was ready to steal his van.  But as I was about to leave I heard a voice scream in my head "Don't!!! He's not far gone enough and he will kill you."

Conflicted, I put the keys down and wandered over to him.  He grabbed my neck clumsily and asked why I put trousers on.  I croaked out I was cold and he threw me into a wall saying "Ye fecking c**t, yer lucky, damn lucky." and left. 

He's hurt, really really hurt and bleeding.  I don't know what happened but I'm...worried *WTF*.  He was struggling to dress his seeping wounds.  I started helping.  He screamed at me to "feck off" and I yelled back at him to shut up! So he let me take care of him.  After cleaning and dressing his more serious wounds, I was cleaning a gash on his forehead, he angrily asked me why I didn't let him just f**king die.  I couldn't answer because I should just let him bleed to death. "I....I don't know."

And that's when he gently touched my face *what?!?*. I could feel him staring at me. I was trying to really focus on the gash and not his piercing gaze. Once I had the butterfly suture things on and bandaged I sat back and realized he was still staring at me.  He seemed conflicted...scared and confused, like no one had ever shown him compassion before. 

We are lying facing each other in the bed, holding hands. We are clothed and he's still staring and caressing my hair. He kissed me gently on the lips. *gasp* Then on the forehead. "Oh love, I am so so sorry."

That's it....it ended....I woke up to crashing thunder and no power....

The * are my thoughts, not said out loud. Please forgive my weird "Scottish" typing...I'm sure its not accurate but the best I can figure. I think he was conjured from a character in a book I'm reading, although that character isn't a bi-polar abductor just an old angry Scotsman. 

You want to know why I hate watching the news?

Because every time I turn it on some f**k nugget kills a bunch of innocent people.  Whether its a bomb, a vehicle crashing into a crowd, a plane into a building, mass shootings...shall I keep going?

Its sick!  People are SICK.  Who the f**k purposefully kills children?!?!  Cowards!  Cowards kill children.  Actually cowards do all of the above. I hate this world!  I hate this so much.  Children DIED.  An 8 year old DIED!  No one deserves to die at the hands of another but she was EIGHT YEARS OLD.  What God would approve of this?!?  Quit hiding behind your radical religious/political bull$hit.  Cold blooded Murder is murder, and can't be justified.

War is one thing...fighting with armies, people who chose (usually) to fight is one thing...attacking innocent persons to strike fear into your "enemy"...there is a special place in hell reserved for you. 

I just watched this episode again the other day.  I hate how much it fits in this stupid world we've created.  Unfortunately you can't reason with crazy...crazy will never listen to anyone because in their minds they are right and justified therefore no one else matters.

My heart hurts for those people...for those families.  

Rant over...we will be back to our regularly scheduled goofiness tomorrow.

P.S. I saw that quote posted on Doctor Who Hub sending condolences to the families of the attack.  And like they said its scary fitting for the situation(s) happening all over the world.  So I wasn't claiming to have thought of it just used it as part of my own rant.  

Crocodile Dundee is that you...?!?!

Saw this....

Link

Ummmmm...Happy Easter...?  I mean this give a whole new meaning to "bringing a knife to a gun fight".  I don't think a gun was present but ...

Oh wait..more like "That's not a knoife...THAT'S a Knoife", right...right?!?!!?

 I can see the accent!

I do feel bad for the victim...its not funny..he was attacked repeatedly with a MACHETE!  But thankfully they seem to be alive...

Sorry...sorry...not really...WTF is happening?!?!  Who keeps a machete with them?!?! I have a "big knife" from a race I did last year.  It was our "finisher medal".  It was SUPPOSED to be a Machete but instead its just a large knife...like the one Dundee has in that gif.  And its insanely sharp on one side and serrated on the other.

I keep it in my bedroom when I'm home alone overnight.  Otherwise its in the Living Room...easy access.  Its in a case...I'm not crazy...that $hit is sharp and I am clumsy...

I am terrified of the world we have created

I have little to say...this isn't for one side or the other...it is for life.

No one deserves death at another's hands no matter who they are or where they come from.  Who are we to decide who lives or dies?  We are not gods but mere humans who are playing games with the lives of our fellow man.  United we stand, divided we fall.  This isn't directed at any particular race, nationality, gender, occupation, etc.  It is about humanity...so little of what makes us human is left in the world.  We should protect the tiny glowing ember that remains hidden in the ashes and nurture it into a wildfire of love, peace, and unity instead of hate and violence.

Imagine

And do not call me a "hippie"...I am not, not really...I am just a human hoping for a better place for my future kids, my nieces & nephews...all of our children.

I am told this would be frowned upon...still don't think its a bad idea....

So in the wake of SOOOOOOO many horribly violent crimes, I had one of those things...you know, a headache with pictures. 

Anyway...I had this thought.   I swear I am normally a pacifist but I've had enough!  Now I am not an Inventor so I don't really know how this would work but it was just the initial thoughts...so don't judge too harshly. 

Also, I may be a bit irritated...see my last post about the INSANELY violent month of June we had.  I mean Thursday night I received two news alerts TWO MINUTES apart. 

1. Officer involved shooting
2. SWAT called, man holed up in a home

The officer involved shooting was because during a traffic stop a suspect drove away and opened fire on an officer...so he returned fire.  *WTF?!!?!?!*

The SWAT thing was because of...no clue.  All it said was he was holed up and no hostages were involved (THANK GOD!).  There isn't an update so I have no idea. 

My point is these are two more crazy things...just in JUNE!  People do not VALUE life!  Since when is it common place to SHOOT AT POLICE?!?!  I know its basically always happened but it seems WAY more common now.  Its like people know the CONSEQUENCES wont be that bad so they justify it in their cracked out heads somehow. 

Moving on to my "idea"...change the consequences.  Jail time is too lenient.  Seriously...in some cases prison is better than their current living situation so yea.  People scream Death Penalty but I think that is too Easy of an out for violent crimes...not "harsh" enough.  I am not a believer in torture but I am a believer in teaching.  So you think it is okay to harm another living creature or take a life.  For an determined amount of time you EXPERIENCE the same violence/death as your victim(s) every day.  Not actual death mind you, just the feeling of it.  It does sound like some 9th circle of Hell on Earth but maybe that is what we need.  If, that doesn't knock some f**king sense into humanity we are a lost f**king cause!

You still don't get what I am saying.  I mean like a cracked out VR program.  You beat someone to death in a fit of drunken rage...you EXPERIENCE that same beating DAILY for your "term".  You shoot someone in cold blood...hey, lets see how you like a bullet to the gut.   You like raping people...oh yea buddy, you are gonna take it in the @$$ hard.  You like diddling kids...how would you like a 2x4 roughly shoved into your unmentionables.  You think its okay to stab someone REPEATEDLY...lets see how you like being stabbed multiple times.  Or are you a strangler...how do you like not breathing?!? Lets see how you like the feeling of your life slowly leaving you.  Lets see how you like the feeling of KNOWING you are going to die because someone else is a f**k nugget!  If people knew...ACTUALLY KNEW the pain they were causing maybe, just maybe these idiots would think twice before harming someone or taking a LIFE. 

Apparently this would be considered psychological torture and is frowned upon.  But clearly what we are doing isn't working.  People don't FEAR jail time enough to NOT commit a crime.  Maybe its an education thing...but some of these violent criminals are very well educated and come from decent families.  Its society as a WHOLE.  Life isn't valued.  They don't see other people as HUMAN BEINGS.  They are seen as just some obstacle to conquer or overcome to "better" their situation. 

Obviously, the same judicial rules and regs would be followed.  Innocent until proven guilty and whatnot but if the threat was "hey, you get murdered everyday for the foreseeable future" instead of "life in prison" maybe these jack@$$e$ would start thinking twice before committing these heinous crimes. 

I mean I guess this kind of tech could be used maliciously and is a tad bit mad scientist/sci-fi but something has got to change. 

Rant Over!

Side Note - Some of the worst ideas in history were created with the best of intentions. 

I think we are overdue for a new plague...

Alright, that sounds really awful and honestly I do not want to go through something like that.  But as stated in a previous post our society is in a downward spiral plummeting towards something really really really REALLY bad. 

I don't know what happened.  I am not a religious fanatic (obviously but I still have MORALS) so I'm not gonna be like "y'all need Jesus" but...ya know what "y'all need Jesus!" Or at least what he represented.  Some sort of moral compass.  Love thy neighbor.  Don't take what isn't yours.  Quit MURDERING people...which if we are being truthful that kind of goes along with the "don't take what isn't yours" thing.  Their LIFE isn't yours to take!!!!!!!

Why can't people cope with their life without enacting harm on another person?!?!  It's like an epidemic!  Life is hard, I know this.  I have stupid crap happen all the time.  Look rejection sucks...but...Rejection.is.normal.  Rejection is a healthy part of life.  Rejection makes you strive harder.  Rejection makes you better yourself so that next time you get what ever it was. 

You will not always make the team. 
You will not always get the job. 
You will not always get the promotion. 
You will not always get the girl/guy. 
You will not always GET WHAT YOU WANT. 

That doesn't mean that you now have the right to harm another person because you were rejected.

Maybe its because I am older but I really feel like the world has become an absolute nightmare.  A place where you can hurt someone or take their life just because YOU feel wronged in some way.  More often than not I am hearing about people who take EXTREME measures against others because they didn't get their way.  It is like they never got passed that Toddler Temper Tantrum phase. 

If a girl/guy/company rejects you:

- You do have the right to be upset
- You do have the right to be angry
- You do have the right to throw YOUR things, in YOUR residence
     ***not at another living creature
- You do have the right to question YOUR choices

- You do not have the right to physically attack anyone
     ***which also means not MURDERING them whether by your hand or a hired one
- You do not have the right to stalk - This includes but is not limited to:
    - Showing up at their work
    - Showing up at their home
    - Showing up when they are out with friends/family
- You do not have the right to harass them
- You do not have the right to damage their property - This includes but is not limited to:
    - Slashing their tires
    - Breaking their windshields
    - Throwing bricks through windows
- You do not have the right to harass their friends/family
- You do not have the right to harm their pets (there is a special place in hell for you if you do)


Just because you have been "wronged" does NOT give you the right to do anything but move on.  You should NEVER lay hands on another person unless in self defense.

No I wasn't attacked but someone I know lost their CHILD because of a "jealous" ex.   It doesn't matter that this person was an adult...they are still someone's CHILD and their life ended prematurely because someone else couldn't cope with them moving on with THEIR LIFE. 

P.S. This includes when you are a parent.  If your child is rejected, teach them a lesson...don't go bat$hit crazy to "save" their feelings.  You are making it WORSE.

P.P.S. People have differing opinions and lifestyles.  Unless their choices are harming you in some way (which is RARE) you have NO RIGHT to harm them or control them.  Live YOUR life and leave them alone to live THEIR life. 

This is important...

...a bit graphic but it's important!!!  I try not to go all serious too often on here but I was almost the one in five.  I got "lucky" but it should NEVER happen.  To women, to men, to children, to anyone.  You have no right to claim another person's body without their permission...EVER!

Lady Gaga released a new video for a song called "Til it happens to you". 

Here is an article talking about the video.

Alight, who dumped the crazy juice into the drinking water???

Seriously though.  Everyday, just about, I get a news alert about some jacked up person with a weapon and it makes me feel stabby.  Yes I know I just eluded to violence in response to violence but the difference between the crazy I'm talking about and my "feeling" is I won't actually go out and stab someone!

I'm not getting into the gun law debate...that $hit is crazy as well.  But I do want to point out that it appears that no matter where you go in the world psychopaths with guns are in competition with each other to see who can amass the higher body count.  This isn't a video game people!!! It is f**king terrifying.

Side Note - I don't believe violent games/movies create violence...I think most times it is a lack of intelligence and a lack of self control that creates violence.  Untreated severe mental illness not included. 

We have the nut jobs in the states who have opened fire in public spaces like movie theaters and offices.  We have the loony toon on the train in Europe who was thankfully taken down by some brave individuals before he could do anything really stupid.  We have the INSANE crime in NOLA.  No really...it is so f**king bad it gives me migraines to watch the news.  When you get an alert that a 13 year old robbed an elderly man at gunpoint you know the world has gone to $hit and its plain to see why you have lost Faith in Humanity.  In the same day you also get an alert saying that a during a routine traffic stop some jack@$$ shot a State Trooper in the head...in the HEAD...what is happening?!?!?! Then you remember that a month ago a 13 year old was arrested because he raped an 8 year old.  How...what...why...how do you ...*hangs head in defeat*.

Yes, I know the state of our mental health, healthcare sucks BUT the crazy is running rampant.  I am saying crazy...maybe its more like delusional...drug induced...self inflicted insanity.  Alcoholics, drug addicts, and mentally unstable persons have been around for a very long time.  This isn't anything new.  So I am really confused as to WHY it is such an epidemic of violence in recent years that is blamed on these things.  Is it because we are more connected so we hear about more?  Are the mind altering substances that much "better"?  Are more people partaking in them?  Is it because these individuals were raised by parents who lived in an "enhanced" state?  Or is it because people were never taught to respect life...or even deal with life for that matter? 

Look, life sucks. . . it isn't easy. . .and bad things happen even to really good people.  But as an adult, you cannot continue to blame your bad behavior on anyone else.  Even if you had a craptastic childhood or marriage or whatever...there comes a point where you have to take responsibility for YOUR actions.

Yes, it is easier said than done but if we RESPECTED life as much as people seem to take it for granted, I think the world would be a much different place.  A better place...maybe.  And as sad as I am to say this if you want to end your life...I don't like it but so be it...all I ask is that you quit taking a room full of innocents with you in the process!

UPDATE!!!!!  WTF it got worse.  This is NOT how I envisioned starting my day...

Then I logged into Facebook and was bombarded with the story from like every news station, it is horrible!!!  Link to "breaking news"