Smells like safety

I know scent memory can be strong.  I know it can be random.  But when it triggers, it trigger hard. 

I have this lotion I received from a small company that is no longer in business.  It’s a soft but masculine scent.  But not like OMG it’s a boy scent (I do love those) but like…not floral or fruity is what I am saying. 

Anyways, it smells sooooo incredibly good to me.  But it triggers a memory.  Mind you not a full memory but a memory of a feeling.  When I smell it, I feel safe and loved.  It’s intense but I can’t connect it to a person.  

Like I can’t place who it reminds me of just the feeling.  I don't wear it all the time but I generally like to wear it to sleep or when I am feeling exceptionally stressed.   It’s more of a fall scent but it makes me smile every time I smell it.  

I wish I knew who wore it to evoke such a strong feeling but I can’t figure it out.  All I know is whomever it was made me feel safe and loved. And I don’t necessarily mean romantic love just….love. 

Gah I wish I could put it into words. I dread the day I run out because I can’t buy it again.  Honestly I am tempted to message them and be like how did you make this?!?!  I don’t want to sell it, I just want to me able to make it for me.  

It was like a baby bird emerging from the nest

So traveling on public transit can be...interesting. In NOLA I don't use it much...honestly I hate that.  I'd rather bus/street car but its just not convenient.  

In other large cities its the norm....mainly because driving in a car is a f**king nightmare!!!!

So when we travel we try to immerse ourselves in public transit as long as it's safe.  So we went to the Big Apple with apparently everyone else on spring break from LA (seriously was half of LA in NYC?!?!) and of course rode on the subway. 

One evening whilst traveling home we had some entertainment.  We noticed some cops on the platform....hmmm odd. 

Then a train pulled up and everyone ran off of a car a little ways down.  Then we see a bare shoulder peak out.  I heard a woman say "I don't think that guy has a shirt on".  

Then the cops spotted him and everything went sideways. He runs out of the car covering his crotch and runs away from us.  We got a perfect view of his tiny tush. 

He's running around the platform and in and out of the subway car with two cops going "come on man just stop!"  Picture a benny hill skit.... I was waiting for the music to start!!!

So they corner him and I'm pretty sure completely out of instinct one cop says "Hands up!"

And that's when we saw it.   Homeboy had a hell of a bush.  And poking out was Mr. Winky.  Now he wasn't close but I saw enough.  It was like a baby carrot in a bed of burnt pasta. A stinky pinky...I'm not finishing that one.  A cocktail sausage...ya know what I'ma stop.  You ever seen The Hangover....you know the scene!!!! In his defense it was quite chilly.  

As soon as he said it the cop was like "Aw...man cover up cover up!". One of them pulled a shirt out of nowhere and threw it at him.  

Whilst homie was putting on said shirt Tiny Tim was on full display.  Unfortunately said shirt only covered his stomach so the naked subway surfer was porky piggin' it while the cops handcuffed him.

Mind you this all happened in a very short period of time.  All the while the train wasn't boarding because I assume they didn't want him to hop back on and escape.  

As we were boarding we heard someone say "that's like the 3rd one this month".

Note - no one got in that car....

I'm starting to think I need to learn something

Its dream time again (apologies in advance). This one I don't remember as much of it but I know with 100% certainty I was back in school.  Like I am the me I am now but also in college classes. 

I am not sure where it began but I remember campus was HUGE and I was walking all over it.  It was very futuristic looking.  Lots of glass buildings, different shapes and angels, VERY clean.  I was in multiple classes but I only really remember one or two.  

It was a group/lab type class.  I was in a group with 3 others (all guys).  One was my work bestie, the other was my newer TALL counterpart whom I am becoming fairly close with (these two refer to themselves as the Italian duo or something haha), and one other guy.  The other guy is like phasing in and out between my husbands operations counterpart at his work and David Tennant (I know my weird @$$ brain!). 

I remember going to this class multiple times.  I always sat across from work bestie and next to the phasing dude.  I think it was a marketing class and the phasing guy was pissing me off because he wouldn't let us get a word in.  

There was another class I was in with most of them except phasing guy was replaced with another male coworker who used to be my manager, I think I usually refer to him as frat guy lol.  We didn't have assigned seats but it was "known" where everyone sat.  One day I was a little late and someone took my place.  Work bestie kept looking back at me over his shoulder looking worried and upset.  There was a test...it was really weird. 

Once it ended I was trying to get out as soon as possible but I didn't have my shoes on (WTF) and was struggling trying to get them on and leave qucikly. 

The next class was the one with phasing dude.  My spot was open but before I could sit across from bestie he pulled me down between him and Tall Counterpart.  This is when I realized we were sitting on the floor around a rectangular table for this class.  

So I sat between them while our phasing friend stayed as David Tennant for a while talking about, I $hit you not, "Wibbly Wobbly Timey Wimey...stuff".  I haven't watched that particular episode in over two years...WTF. 

Anyways The professor is talking and asked me if I wanted to move to my normal spot. Bestie put his arm around me, pulled me closer, and said "no, she belongs right here between us".  Ummmmm what?!?

The rest of the class is blurry but I distinctly remember bestie making sure some part of me was touching him (not in a sexual or oogie way).  I was writing something and phasing friend tried to touch my arm across the table. Tall counterpart blocked him and Bestie tightened his arm around me and......growled. 

That's where it ended....my subconscious is clearly on drugs!  I feel like there are meanings in all these dreams but I am too exhausted to even try and analyze them. 

Tell your sleep paralysis demon he needs to pay rent....and my therapist bill!

Get married they said.  It will be fun they said. They forgot to mention the potential existential terror sleeping next to another person might cause. 

I can't always fall asleep right away when I go to bed so I'll read or play on Imgur or something.  The other night I was doing that next to my sleeping husband (mind you lights are out) when all hell broke loose. 

Hubs: *out of a dead sleep whisper yelling* NOLA GURL!!!! *hitting my thigh*

Me: What?!?!?!!  What's wrong?!!?

Hubs: Something is above your iPad.....

Me: I beg your finest pardon?!?!?!!?

Hubs: It's....on the ceiling

Me: *panicking but thinking ok he's asleep* I don't see anything

Hubs: *grabs my hand in an almost painful grip* *eyes WIDE open*

Me: *about to stroke out*

Hubs: I think it's growling at me

Me: I'm sorry its what.....????????????????

Hubs: Its like growling talking

Me: WHAT?!?!?! *about to $hit the bed*

Hubs: *in a tiny voice* It says its gonna grab me and throw me over there! *points to closet*

Me: Alexa LUMOS!!!!!

Blinding lights come on.  I am sitting up. The dogs are looking at me like I've LOST MY MIND.  Nothing is on the ceiling.  Hubs goes "Oh well it's gone".  Rolls over...AND GOES BACK TO SLEEP!!!!!!!

Cool cool cool you get some rest while I stare into the dark and hope the dark isn't staring back......

Note - He had not been drinking and doesn't take drugs...nor was he on anything like Ambien....

We gotta go back, back to schooooool

So to conclude my trio of dreams from the other night.... I was back in School.  

I was on a college type campus.  Like a hybrid between LSU and UNO.  I was taking continuing education classes but it was a full time program. 

It was daytime now.  I remembered the previous situation with my cousins vaguely.  And knew I was in these classes to study "science" related to magic(?).  I was taking a lab.  Like literally what you see in TV Shows/Movies where they are mixing all these colorful liquids.  

I know days were passing but a lot was in the lab.  I also know I was staying in the dorms on campus.  So I am the age I am now but living in dorms.  And the other people there were also around my age... Some of them I know I knew in real life college but I couldn't tell you who they were at this point.  

One day I went out to Brunch with my bestie who didn't actually go to college with me.  We are childhood friends and she went to a tiny university but in the dream she was with me taking other classes.  So we are looking for a spot to park my car and the streets look like NOLA during a parade.  Almost ZERO parking.  But we found a spot near a corner where my little blue car fit. 

Someone at brunch even mentioned a parade which I guess is tying it back in(?).  I know we had beverages and walked(?) back to campus.  Sometime passed and I was walking into my dorm building when an intercom/siren alert went off all over campus.  

There was a threat to campus.  Something about a massive bomb that would send shards out into anyone nearby.  I remember thinking "Oh no they found me!"  As I was running across a parking lot I heard my name.  There was a guy leaning out a window of his  car waving.  It was my short term college boyfriend.  The tall one with dark hair.  

He was like what are you doing???!? Dude my car is off campus, I am trying to get to it.  He was like get in the f**king car!  So I jumped in the backseat.  He was like there is shrapnel and it's going to go off in less than 5 min!!!!! 

So we are peeling out of campus and I am now freaking out. We can't get to my car.  He put his arm over the back seat and was patting my ankle trying to comfort me.  That is was going to be ok and I needed to find him.  I was like you are with me what do you mean.  He looked back at me and said just find me.  

Well if this is happening, where is Thing?

So my previous dream (saving the dog) jumped here. 

I was standing in the street and my little cousin (my cousin's Daughter) was in the box next to the trash can....she'd been hit by a car.  I guess saving the dog caused this?!?!?!

She stood up (Someone was screaming...it might have been me).  Ok so she's the dog now?!?!?  My sleep brain was so confused. 

She was in a dress with a tiara.  She stood up and was like $hit that hurt.  My younger cousin (her Aunt) was like JFC how are you alive!??!  Are you alive?!?!?

She was like yea I'm great.  But she was a weird pale color...dark circles and when she lifted her shirt and the contusions on her side were...AWFUL. Think like death becomes her but without the hole in the abdomen. 

I was freaking out.  She said "you brought me back".  WHAT??!?!?!

Some blonde haired woman with a Pixie cut in a fitted red dress was like "we need to move. There will be consequences".  PARDON.....?

It's still night.  There is still lightening.  We get to this building that looks like a cross between Jack Skellington's Lab and the Addams Family house.  It's dark inside....cluttered but sterile.  The big window from Wednesday was across the room.  Grandma Addams was the one that greeted us.  She said something about messing with dark forces.  

My little cousin was walking and talking just fine but everyone else seemed REALLY concerned.  The blonde went into the bathroom and got in a bath.  She was fully clothed, covered in bubbles, staring at the wall, and smoking a ciggy.  I touched her arm but she didn't move.  

I said "did saving her break something?"  She said she wasn't sure but we needed to keep moving because they were coming.  And they wouldn't stop until a wrong was righted.  

I walked back into the common area and people were chanting and in dark robes.  My little cousin was in the center smiling on her iPhone.  Lightning was still streaking through the sky. 

And it ended..............

I thought Mardi Gras Parades were over

So maybe giving up alcohol for Lent opened my third eye or something....

Sorry this has been a dream diary lately but these are just too weird. 

This is a short one but it bled into another dream....then..another.... but I'll make 3 posts so it's not too long. 

We were on the Avenue all day. Ladders set up, chairs galore, beads a flying. My co-workers were in town or lived here...I am not sure. The only one I remember for sure was my "mini me".  We have a similar build, blonde hair, short, love the same things...but she is like 28 hahaha. 

Anyways she had her dog with her in in the ladder seat like a kid (no judgement).  But he didn't look like her dog.  He was smaller and only blonde hair not black and blonde.  He didn't want to be in the ladder and kept getting down and going across the street.  It was freaking me out because FLOATS but he was listening and would sit and watch the bands and floats and then come back for a visit then go back.  

I had a horrible feeling about the whole thing but no one else seemed to be concerned.  At one point he looked at us as a band was going by and started to cross.  We yelled no no sit! And he did but he started to walked again right after and we yelled no because the band vehicle was coming.  So he sat and then the band truck started veering towards the crowd for no apparent reason, right towards him and.... lets just say I remember screaming a lot and knew it was bad.  

I jumped off my ladder and ran across the street.  I saw someone pick him up.  People weren't letting me through.  I was yelling I'm friends with his owner.  I don't remember seeing him but I know I looked and he was gone.  

I was crying thinking how am I going to tell her.  I kept saying this wasn't supposed to happen.  We were having fun.  I told her what happened from the ground and she started wailing crying.  I started screaming this wasn't supposed to happen make it rewind.  Make it go back.  I know you can make it go back.  Please just rewind just a little.  Give me a chance to save him. He wasn't supposed to die here.  

I was concentrating REALLY hard....and...it happened.  The dream rewound.  I was back on the ladder, it hadn't happened yet.  But the ladder was suddenly...sentient (WTF).  Picture the brooms in Fantasia but a ladder.  It was "walking" around to get me the best view of the floats.  I was freaking out because I had no control.  Then it was the moment before he was hit.  I jumped off the ladder and ran across the street.  I grabbed him before the vehicle got to him and ran back across the street. 

I handed him to my friend and said you have to keep him in the seat, so she leashed him.  Then lightning streaked across the sky.  It was purple.  The wind picked up.  I was in the middle of the street and the parade was gone but the crowd was still there.  I heard something say I broke the rules. I remember standing next to an overflowing trash can with bright headlights (?) shining on me. 

This is where it ended I think......