I hate PMS-ing! Being female is rather annoying sometimes!

This is NOT a TMI post.  I am not talking about the "OMG she is so bitchy" type or the "OMG I need ______ to eat RIGHT now!" type or the "OMG I feel like my insides are at war" type.  I am talking about the uncontrollable, uh, empathy (?).  I have cried multiple times in the past few days!  For stupid stuff!!!  I am not talking about like in other posts when I saying *crying* or *sobbing*....in those I mean in my head...today I am talking full blown tears streaming down the face.  Some examples....

The other day I cried because of a television commercial.  I shit you not I had to leave the room so I could stop.  Thank God I was home alone at the time.  It was this daddy commercial...created for father's day by Dove, I think.   Anyways, I've seen it before but this time, instant sob fest.  WTF is wrong with me?!?

Then yesterday I heard a song and just cried the whole way to work...I tried singing other songs... listening to a morning show...nothing worked!  No idea what happened, I guess just feeling blah.

I have already teared up TWICE this morning.  It is 11:00AM and I am just emotionally wrecked.  The first time was because of texts between me and hubs.  Nothing bad...just texts...  It was dumb but it got me good.  Then a few minutes ago I was on hold and started watching a video for the song "A Thousand Years".  I didn't realize what it was about!  I wanted to hear the song and then I saw what the video was...  It made me have feels...I want to crawl under my desk now.   I mean many people would see the below an not even know why it is sad but if you watch a certain Science Fiction series that comes on BBC you will probably be joining me in the sob-fest.  Yes, their story line is sad, I teared up during "The Angels Take Manhattan" and don't even talk to me about the scene when he is reading Amy's Epilogue. I was sad the first time I saw it but I'm going to lose my composure thinking about it right now.  *geeeeeeez* Pull it together woman!

I don't cry over non-sense!  I get sad or feel a twinge or tear up but this is way beyond that.  I swear next it is going to be, "OMG look at that pen *sobbing*.  It reminds me of a Pen I had in High School when I used to write notes to my BFF *waaaaaaaaaaaaaah*".  Or "I forgot to renew my book at the library and it expired *quivering lip*". Or "I really want hamburgers for dinner.  But we don't have any potatoes *collapses onto knees*".  Okay that last one is really silly but sometimes you just can't have hamburgers without fries....*ugh* seriously it is getting to that point. 


I'm scared to watch TV...I might lose my shit.  If someone dies on Defiance tonight I may be found rocking in the corner of a closet (you should really watch this show...I love it!).  Or what if Michael does something totally human which would usually just get an "awe", unless you are me at the moment...then it will be a full break down.  I can see it now "but you don't understand.  He LOOOOOVES ...  but he isn't telling ... because ... *sniffle, sniffle* because....*incomprehensible blabber*".  My husband will try to coax me out with promises of wine and hugs.  But I'll be all "no, I live in the shadows now, if I can't see I won't cry, leave me be *hiss*".  Hmmmm, tonight cannot end without me crying, can it...?

Oh goodness me...I need a hug.  No wait that might make me cry...maybe a face hug from the kitten...no wait that will make me cry for totally different reasons *ahem* razorblade claws *ahem*.  Maybe I should just go to bed...of course with my luck that will end with me crying in my dreams and waking up in a puddle of my own tears.  Oh I am a ball of sunshine today...signing off. 

P.S.  Don't start saying the "P" word.  Because I am not.  I am 100% certain I am not. So just remove that thought from your brains.