Yes I watch the show but it ended weeks ago. Granted I watched the season finale more recently but it was still well over a week ago. It was such an odd dream. He kept changing. When we were talking about psychology (apparently I was a psychologist) or crimes he looked like the guy from the TV Show. But when it was more friendly/intimate he looked like my husband. WTF?!?
It was totally the plot of the show too. People suspected him of being a murderer (I don't think cannibal, maybe though) but he was elusive. Some people loved him and others wanted to bring him down. I was TWO people. I was me but as a Doctor Lady. And I was Will Graham...I mean people called me something else but that was the character. So I was jumping between parts. I've never had a dream like that before. I was both a male and a female (not at the same time). It was sooooooo odd!
So when I was me as the Doctor lady, I was in love with Hannibal. I am a WEIRDO! But when we would have conversations or get close he would look like my husband. Then when I would change into Will, he would look like the actor from TV. OMG my subconscious is strange! Both of my personalities were trying to reveal who he really was. The lady was blinded by love but knew she had to trick him into showing his true colors and Will was just a manipulative lil shit. So the Doctor me was using some sort of hypnosis to control him. I remember thinking "I can't believe I'm doing this. I hope he forgives me". What?!? Why would I want a crazy person's forgiveness?!? Then things would happen and I'd be like "there is no way he's a killer!" But I believe I was thinking that because he looked like my significant other who is a genuinely good person. Then I'd switch to Will and use Doctor Lady's hypnosis to manipulate him. I just really wanted to bring him down. At these points he'd look like Hannibal. I have no idea how my brain kept track of all this switching but it did and it kind of made sense (creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy).
Hannibal caught on to the deception and got insanely aggressive with Lady Doctor but wouldn't hurt her/me. Okay maybe he'd hurt me but not kill. And I wasn't liking the aggression but he was. Okay, this is bordering on 50 Shades of Grey type stuff and I am not exactly in to that...at all! On the other hand he was trying really hard to kill Will/me. It was jumping quickly between my two personae. He would change looks every time my perspective changed. It was dizzying! This is around the point where he stopped changing fully. It was more like a blend of the two of them looking less and less like my sig other. The last piece I remember I was terrified. I was being picked up by the hips (as the Doctor Lady) and slammed against the wall. This time he didn't look like the hubs at all...he looked like the crazy cannibal from TV, covered in blood. It could have been seen as sexual except the whole blood thing and I was scared out of my mind so my only thought was "crap".
I wish I was a professional dream analyzer because this one is just all kinds of messed up! Does this reveal something wacko about me??? Like do I have a dormant male persona just busting at the seams to get out!?!? Maybe the twin that I don't have is buried deep in my subconscious and my dreams are starting to let him out. Am I secretly scared of my husband??? I mean probably not. Of course not! I just need to stop watching/reading psychological thrillers because they are clearly starting to affect me.
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