Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Does anyone else suffer from second hand embarrassment???

I do!  And it makes me nuts!!!  It is all in my head and sometimes I think I have lost my marbles.  Its stupid, so stupid.  I embarrass myself all the time because I am, well, me.  I mean I don't show it.  I do something, um, silly *ahem* and then play it off best I can.  Ya know, act all nonchalant.  Of course I relive said moment in my head over and over and over and...maybe I am neurotic...hmmm. But second hand embarrassment, I think I might die a little inside each time and I am not even the one doing the weird thing. 

And it is not just "real" people.  I find when watching a fav TV Show/Movie/Actor I cringe at their "awkwardness".   For example (seriously one of MANY), this show a couple weeks ago.  Its a crime drama...well a remake of a crime drama but whatever and its a good show.  I've seen both versions and enjoy both for totally different reasons.  Anyways there was this insanely AWKWARD scene in the original that also ended up in the remake.  Both times I wanted to crawl under the table because I felt the weirdness that was happening on screen.  Well in the original it was 1000 times more uncomfortable but it was still "OMG" worthy in the remake.  It is a total misread of a persons intentions.  As in, "hey, let's hook up, I know you want to." and the other person is like "uh yea no." 

But I only get the second hand embarrassment when watching serious TV/Movies.  If its supposed to be a comedy, I am fine.  All I can think of is I can overly relate to the weirdness going on.  Meaning, I am OBVIOUSLY an unusual person so when I see someone else being unusual and other people not getting it, I feel their uncomfortableness. 

What is really odd about me is this happens with books too!!!  Some characters make me bonkers.  There are times where I have to stop reading, look away and go "OMG are you kidding me?!?!"  Or giggle hysterically and put my head down because I cannot believe they did that or maybe because I can totally see myself doing that. 

Do I have an overactive imagination?!?!  Am I abnormally empathetic?!?!  Is this something other people experience?!?!  Am I really THAT weird?!?! I am fairly certain I am not the only one but sometimes I wonder. Now if you'll excuse me, I shall go read more of my book and suffer an insane amount of second hand embarrassment.

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