Ok so I am clearly female...at least I think its clear. Anyways I suffer from all the normal monthly female issues. Now granted mine are not NEARLY as severe as other women but I have some symptoms none the less. Anyways for years I've been trying to figure out how to aptly describe the different feelings to guys who ask without totally ooging them out. Now that I am married my husband has noticed different things about me and I can't ever quite explain them properly.
As in he's asked "how do you know its "starting"? Like is it all pain, grumpiness, or is it just like oh crap now I need new undies?" Thanks dear for the simplification. So I've told him repeatedly its like right before anything , um well happens, if you are paying attention and are not otherwise distracted you feel like a nudge or a jolt or a feeling like in the pit of your stomach. This just seems to confuse him further because he is thinking like an electric shock or a lightening bolt and that's not what I mean.
Its not always pain (at least not for me...not right away anyway). Well this morning I finally had a comparison. I was awakened out of dead sleep by my body. I kind of jerked but only ever so slightly. The 1st image that popped in my head was when the clocks start in the movie "In Time". When the two main characters are talking about when their "clocks" started what they were doing. The guy says he was walking down the street and it almost knocked him over (that has TOTALLY happened to me before...and then I casually rush to the nearest restroom to prevent any embarrassing moments). The girl says she was sleeping and it woke her up (hmmmm yep).
To make this comparison even more weird...now that I've associated the movie and my...um life...I can picture a clock on my arm. But my clock isn't counting down the years I have left to live...it's counting how many years I have left to potentially have kids. Yep...that's where my brain went. I don't ever think like that. I want to have little ones but I'm not rushing or stressing. Yes, we will have them but somehow my 1/2 asleep sub-conscious decided I should start thinking about it now and unfortunately I cannot get this image out of my head. The whole biological clock thing just took on a whole new meaning o_O.
No comments:
Post a Comment