Of course its real! How can people still think it isn't real?!?!?!?

Depression is very very very real.  It isn't something you can just "turn off" or "get over".  Yes everyone in creation has ups and downs but DEPRESSION is a disease of the mind.  Its horrible and if people still think its made up or whatever they have clearly never known someone who suffered with it.

We've lost another talented person to suicide.  How many famous and non-famous people have to die before we realize the status of mental health treatment is embarrassing...?

Chester Bennington committed suicide mere weeks after Chris Cornell was found by his bodyguard.  They were friends.  Chris dying clearly took a toll on Chester.  I am so heartbroken for them and their families, friends, and fans.

So we lost two more amazing artists to a horrible disease.  I hate seeing/hearing things like "oh just another famous person who can't handle money" or "just another druggie" about anyone who has passed from an overdose or suicide or a combination.  That's not it.  Some of these aren't using drugs/alcohol to "be cool" or whatever.  Its their only way to cope with the horrible things depression does to their minds.  It gets so bad that death seems like the only way out.  I can't imagine that.  I can't imagine being so lost in the darkness of my own mind that I want to take my life but I know...I KNOW it happens.

I watched my Aunt and family deal with it after they found her husband.  I watched my BFF and her family deal with it after they found her Aunt.  Its awful.  You see first hand what happens to the family during and after something like this.  And while many want to blame the person who committed suicide, calling them selfish, they really shouldn't.  Yes, it is selfish I guess but that isn't how they see it.  They usually see themselves as a burden, as a problem, as someone who doesn't deserve to be happy...pick something.  They think taking themselves out of the equation is better for them AND those around them because they usually know they are sick and their loved ones wont have to be burdened with their issues any longer.

There is a light, there is always a light in the darkness, but sometimes they can't see it.  Depression LIES.  It lies so much.  But when you are depressed you may not be able to see that.

Bill Board Tribute to Chester

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Chris & Chester sing Hunger Strike

Do you ever redisccover bands???

I love it!  Its like new music but you know all the words :)

Apparently I like Coldplay.  I mean I knew I liked them and enjoyed their newer songs, like the SUPER popular ones *ahem* Viva la Vida *ahem*, but I heard a song the other day and was like wait I like that song a lot but couldn't place it for whatever reason (can I blame this on extreme heat and lack of water?!?!?!).  So I of course shazam-ed it and it was a Coldplay song and I was like "Oh, right, I knew that, wait I have that CD".  I promptly added a new station to my Pandora to make sure I get a dose of Coldplay when I have it on shuffle.  By the way the song was "The Scientist", it melts me every time I hear it.

But now that I've heard more of the songs I somehow forgot about on Pandora (how did I forget how good these were?!?!), I want to re-purchase some of the albums or at least a few of the songs.  I lost most of my old CDs thanks to mother nature before I copied them onto my Mac. The thing is I know I should have just done it but at the time I was like "ugh these are so old, I'll do it later".  And now I don't have them and the ones I did salvage...well not all of them are playable.  I clearly listened to them A LOT and the are beat to heck plus water damage didn't help *sigh*.  So now...now I want my old music back and it is gone.  I say old...well its CDs...shoo I've been buying my music on iTunes since 2004 I guess, maybe before that, who knows.  I think the last actual CD I bought, I was in grad school o_O or just after.  So yes the ones I have are quite, um, oldish.  The last one of theirs (physical CD) I bought was X&Y.  And then I got poor-ish (stupid ex problems) and I stopped buying music all together for a few years and I somehow forgot about Coldplay.  Seriously from 2007-2011 I didn't purchase one song...do you know how weird that is for me?!?!? I am a music junkie, I love getting lost in songs.  So now I guess I am catching up on all that I've missed. 

Point is I've rediscovered how much I enjoy their songs and now I am wondering what other bands I have forgotten.  I totally forgot about Linkin Park and MCR but luckily I bought some of their stuff on iTunes not the most recent stuff but I have rekindled my love of their music as well. 

Geez, Third Eye Blind just shuffled on while I was writing this.  How did I forget about these bands?!?!?!