I had a dream about Hannibal (like Dr. Lecter)

Yes I watch the show but it ended weeks ago.  Granted I watched the season finale more recently but it was still well over a week ago. It was such an odd dream.  He kept changing.  When we were talking about psychology (apparently I was a psychologist) or crimes he looked like the guy from the TV Show.  But when it was more friendly/intimate he looked like my husband.  WTF?!?

It was totally the plot of the show too.  People suspected him of being a murderer (I don't think cannibal, maybe though) but he was elusive.  Some people loved him and others wanted to bring him down.  I was TWO people.  I was me but as a Doctor Lady.  And I was Will Graham...I mean people called me something else but that was the character.  So I was jumping between parts.  I've never had a dream like that before.  I was both a male and a female (not at the same time).  It was sooooooo odd!

So when I was me as the Doctor lady, I was in love with Hannibal.  I am a WEIRDO!  But when we would have conversations or get close he would look like my husband. Then when I would change into Will, he would look like the actor from TV.  OMG my subconscious is strange! Both of my personalities were trying to reveal who he really was.  The lady was blinded by love but knew she had to trick him into showing his true colors and Will was just a manipulative lil shit.  So the Doctor me was using some sort of hypnosis to control him.  I remember thinking "I can't believe I'm doing this.  I hope he forgives me".  What?!?  Why would I want a crazy person's forgiveness?!?  Then things would happen and I'd be like "there is no way he's a killer!" But I believe I was thinking that because he looked like my significant other who is a genuinely good person.  Then I'd switch to Will and use Doctor Lady's hypnosis to manipulate him. I just really wanted to bring him down.  At these points he'd look like Hannibal. I have no idea how my brain kept track of all this switching but it did and it kind of made sense (creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy).

Hannibal caught on to the deception and got insanely aggressive with Lady Doctor but wouldn't hurt her/me.   Okay maybe he'd hurt me but not kill.  And I wasn't liking the aggression but he was.   Okay, this is bordering on 50 Shades of Grey type stuff and I am not exactly in to that...at all!  On the other hand he was trying really hard to kill Will/me.  It was jumping quickly between my two personae. He would change looks every time my perspective changed.  It was dizzying! This is around the point where he stopped changing fully.  It was more like a blend of the two of them looking less and less like my sig other. The last piece I remember I was terrified.  I was being picked up by the hips (as the Doctor Lady) and slammed against the wall.  This time he didn't look like the hubs at all...he looked like the crazy cannibal from TV, covered in blood.  It could have been seen as sexual except the whole blood thing and I was scared out of my mind so my only thought was "crap". 

I wish I was a professional dream analyzer because this one is just all kinds of messed up!  Does this reveal something wacko about me???  Like do I have a dormant male persona just busting at the seams to get out!?!?  Maybe the twin that I don't have is buried deep in my subconscious and my dreams are starting to let him out.  Am I secretly scared of my husband???  I mean probably not.  Of course not!  I just need to stop watching/reading psychological thrillers because they are clearly starting to affect me. 

Tonight we gonna pawty like it's 1999!

Is this really happening? No Way!

OK so why am I so giddy you may ask. Well because a few entries back I was annoyed with my living situation. Well good news people, come September 14th I WILL BE RID OF HIM! That's right my 'roommate' is moving...and not just to another house/apt/city....he's moving OUT OF STATE! *Doing the happy dance*.

What sparked this??? You See in July Younger Guy came pick me up from the house and all hell broke loose. My roomie FREAKED out and thought I was so inconsiderate for having someone pick me up. He didn't even come in or knocked...just pulled up, called me and I went out. About a week later roomie comes home and says "that company in TX wants me to come for an interview." I was like, cool. So he interviews, takes the job and says ok they want me to start in September. Okee Dokee!

Well being the douche that he is, that meant I needed to drop EVERYTHING I had planned for the next month and a half and help him make the repairs on the house that should have been done over a year ago!!!!!! As you may imagine that did not sit well with me and I flipped out a bit and he retracted his request. I mean come on....August is my boyfriends, 3 of my best friends and my brother's b-days AND my High School reunion...sorry buddy I'm kinda booked...but I'll help when I can.

Well then he says (at the beginning of August) "Don't pay me for your half of the bills this month...use that for Landscaping". Um really...during the HEIGHT of hurricane season, you want me to spend mucho moola and landscape....so I bought the supplies but I am not landscaping until I know a storm isn't going to form and destroy my work (and money :P).

Well now that it's getting closer he is getting more and more remorseful. He seems excited about this new opportunity but he keeps making random statements. Things like, "It's going to be weird...I mean I have lived with you for the past 6 years". Which yes, I agree it will be a little strange BUT I lived with my 2 best friends for 4.5 years and then moved out by myself when we graduated and although it was strange I was A-OK. Granted this is a little differnt but we have been broken up and living seperate lives for 1.5 years now so I think the transition...at least for me will be smooth. He's said other things but none as memorable as that one :P. So THANK GOD I will be out of town the weekend he moves out because I don't want to be a part of that Drama/pent up emotion when reality hits him and he realizes he had a knee jerk reaction to my boyfriend being "real" and is now on his way to TX where he has no friends or family. Just the 'friend' he made at a training session who will now be his boss. I ain't worried about him, seems like a legit company and he's getting paid more (which evidently is all that matters to him) so he wont be back. I just hope I get the $$$ so I can finish the house and move on with my life!

I think I need a restraining order!

How dumb can one guy be?!

Ok so the best way to a woman's heart is...by calling her a whore and then asking why she doesn't want to be with you...right?! OK so I was gonna do this right and actually try to talk to him...because thats how I roll. But the other night he texted me and said "So are you and ______ together now?" WHAT?!?!?! Seriously!? So at that point I decided he could rot in hell :P.

Tonight he messaged me...here is the conversation:

IG: hello NOLAGurl
NOLAGurl: Im filing my taxes whats up
IG: oh u know..
IG: just kind of wondering why i havent heard from you in almost 2 weeks
NOLAGurl: because you sent me a jackass text the other night so I figured it wasn't worth calling
IG: lets see, his face is the only guys face in your pics, lets rewind the clock here, your promos, Halloween, Abita Christmas Bash, BCS Championship, Rascal Flatts, Irish-Italian parade, shall i go on? anyway, all the time u make for your friend, "Purple ______" which im beginning to wonder to just how u know that exactly now....anyway, u call me a jackass, thats fine...
IG: youve been nothing but a lying bitch this whole time to me anyway whos done nothing but waste my time
NOLAGurl: Your an ass, thanks. insult me all you want. your suspicious, insecure attitude didn't help. And yes maybe I am seeing someone else now....or at least thinking about it... and NO ITS NOT ________
IG: i dont give a fuck who it is, thanks for wasting 7 months of my life
NOLAGurl: good bye IG
IG: i was nothing but understanding of you and all your emotional drama and bullshit and lies
IG: look where that got me
NOLAGurl: You blame everything on everyone else. I am a liar with emotional drama. You are a mama's boy who never grew up. I cared about you. Take that for what its worth. And no you weren't understanding you just like to tell yourself that
IG: hmm u live with your ex
IG: go out constantly and gotten fucked up how many times?
IG: and blew me off for the holidays
IG: and dresses like a teeny bopper for concerts
IG: and im the one who hasnt grown up?
NOLAGurl: We dressed up for NKOTB and your using that against me.... Look I need someone to like me for me.... And I know there are people out there that do/will. I like to be me. You never accepted that...and I think I may have found someone that does
IG: i never accepted being treated like shit
IG: i made all the effort
IG: u never did
IG: lets see our second date u were over an hour late
IG: lets see
IG: lsu-florida, u were too fucked up to see me, good thing i wasnt at Lagers already
IG: im in the quarter trying to meet with u and u dont answer ur phone, probably because u were with _______ or some shit
IG: Thanksgiving no effort
NOLAGurl: Um yea I wasn't with _______ and I was drugged for the LSU UF game…but thanks :P
IG: Christmas, blown off completely
IG: new years, never saw you
NOLAGurl: New years you hated me bc of christmas
IG: quite shocked i saw u for my birthday
NOLAGurl: Look I dont need to relive this and neither do you. I saw you for your bday bc I wantd to.
IG: what else a few weeks ago, u call me in th wee hours of the night
IG: working u promo, and u were trashed
NOLAGurl: I wasn't trashed asshole. I know why you have issues with women, you change everything to fit your reality. honestly Im not sure any of them were crazy...they were probably normal and got tired of your bull.
IG: hmmm youre the only real crazy one ive dated NOLAGurl
IG: youre 27, and act like youre 17, and the only thing u have on me, is that im at home right now, even though im currently working on resolving that as we speak, not that u need to know that
NOLAGurl: Good for you. I dont act like I am17. Just bc I have a life and you don’t does not make me 17. What makes me 17. My mortgage, my job, my love life? Really....most people think I am much older.... having fun and being immature are two different things. I have responsabilities...lots of them... and I am working on my situation too, not that you need to know that.
IG: just like u were working on it back in August right?
NOLAGurl: Nope actually different but it wouldn't matter to you. I'd move out and you'd find something else to hold over my head.... I'd stop going out and then something else would surface....I'd alienate my friends and then you'd finally be happy maybe. I dont really care anymore. I wanted to do this right but whats the point.
IG: just like the reason u didnt want me over in the beginning, had absolutely nothing to do with EX right?
NOLAGurl: huh?
IG: exactly how were u gonna make this right? just continue to ignore me?
NOLAGurl: No. BUT I wasn’t going to tell you to eff off via IM. I was going to be an adult about it and have a conversation...then you texted me on Monday about _______ which infuriated me and my date. I decided at that point it was pointless. there is no making you happy
IG: well lets talk now, what exactly did u want to say?
NOLAGurl: whats the point so you can tell me Im lying, imply that im a whore or try to make me think something wrong with me for being me....or refusing to end a friendship bc your insecure. Which part would end well???

As I type this he is still IMing me asking what I wanted to tell him and I have not responded. I am blocking him/deleting him on both social sites and vi IM.  I attract PYCHO PATHS!