It's Raining Men...

...And here I am without my Umbrella!

Holy crap, I dunno what to do. Okay so last night I went to the Rehearsal Dinner with Friend's Cousin. We had so much fun!!! I made friends with the wife of one of the Usher's so her and I were cutting up the whole time. Me and my date were goofing off also. He was MUCH more comfortable with me this time and definitely more flirty.

It was so embarrassing at one point because we were sitting there talking and we can hear the people at one end of the table saying to take the Bride and Grooms order first. So I am talking to my new friend and my date was telling a story, I believe and all of a sudden I hear the waitress say, "they told me to take your order first" to my date. He played it off very well and I just laughed. Then I turned around and the Usher said "you're gonna need 10 glasses of wine after that one", haha.

Well anyway, the way we were seated two of the groomsmen without dates were across from us. They are old military buddies of the Groom. One was very cute/charming and the other I swear was gay but he had a wedding band sooooooo I dunno. Well the cute one was FLIRTING with me, like shamelessly. I know my date noticed...well he may not have he was having too much fun swapping stories with the Groom. Don't get me wrong this guy very attractive but seriously man, I was with someone, STOP FLIRTING. I took it as a compliment though, I must have looked quite HOT!

A good time was had by all and it really made me lookforward to the wedding tomorrow. I think I'll have a good time :). After the dinner ended I got hugs from everyone, yay they must have liked me ;) haha. Well my date brought me back to my car and I headed home. Before I was half way there he called. He wanted to tell me to drive safe and that I looked very pretty tonight (which he must have said 10 times throughout the night). THen he said "so what's it like still living with your Ex?" Um, what, how in tha world...Um, k. Well I explained the situation and he started laughing. He said I am a better person than him. I think I made him feel better when I said "Thats been over since april, we are Literally roomates, he does his thing I do my thing and we will go our seperate ways once we sell the house". He seemed ok with it, but its hard to tell over the phone but he still asked me to call when I got in my house so he knew I was safe, aw.

When I called he said again how nice I looked and that he had lots of fun. He said he'll call me today :D.

So why is it raining men. Well...
1. I had another good date with Friends Cousin
2. Best Man was Flirting with me ALL night
3. Internet guy texted and called me a few times "just to say hello and goodnight"
oh yea and
4. when I was leaving, I noticed my Ex watching me out of the corner of my eye (he never does that)

What to do, what to do? Oooo Ooooo Oooooo I know, go compleltly insane and have my best friend commit me :P. So what I predicted happened BUT it happened at the Rehearsal not the Wedding. I am NOT ready to be tied down to one guy. I like Internet Guy a lot I really do but I am not even close to being ready to be in another semi-serious relationship.

Confusion...2 good guys, 1 girl :(

What do you do when you find a good thing but you are not ready for it?

Okay so as you know I've been on a few dates with my internet guy. He is super sweet and understanding and...anyways you get the picture. I like him, I really do but I am not ready for another relationship yet. I want to have fun still. I want to go out on random dates, not because I am looking for anything but because I can... does that make any sense? I want to party it up with my friends and flirt and not feel guilty. I just want...I want to be single for a while.

So you may be asking yourself what brought on this rant here. Well ya see my friends cousin (guy from 5th First Date) called me out of the blue last week. He apologized for going MIA but said some stuff came up that he had to take care of and he also bought a house (like 5 min from where I live) and has been dealing with that. He said he had fun when we went out and wanted to see if I wanted to go out again. I guess I sounded a little put off on the phone because he quickly said, the house stuff has consumed his time, etc etc etc.

He asked what I was doing this Saturday, because he needed a date for this wedding and would like it if I could go. I had no plans, yet, but I didn't want to just say yes. He said he also wanted me to go to the rehearsal dinner on Thursday, if I could make it. I asked if I could let him know on Sunday a definite yay or nay. He said he'd give me a call. OK GREAT!

So for 3 days I contemplated what to do. Of course my friends and select family that knew said "Go for it, free food and booze". But I started to feel like I shouldn't even though internet guy and I are NOT, not seeing other people. So when he called Monday...I said OK. And it felt great :D haha. Problem, how do I tell but not tell internet guy. Well I just said I was going with a friend to a wedding Saturday, which is true. He asked if it was a guy...I said yes and we left it at that. Not bad right?

So why do I feel like a horrible person. I'll tell you why...because I like him and I shouldn't, AHHHH! So I am hoping that going out with friend's cousin will help me to figure out what to do...either that or it will confuse me more :P.

I am thinking after the wedding one of two things will happen:

1. Going on a date with another guy will make me realize how NOT ready for a relationship I am and that I should still be having fun

2. I will realize I want to be with Internet Guy and only him, even though I'm not ready for it

Somebody shoot me I thought dating was suposed to be fun!!!!!

He is too good to be true!

Why aren't all guys this amazing...?

OK so today was a very busy day for me. First I met my girls at the mall to shop for the big concert and I got fitted for yet another Bridesmaid Dress! Well after we were done at the mall my Internet Guy wanted to come meet me for a late lunch and whatever.

So we met up at this great Italian Grill by the mall and had lunch and stuff. Afterward we couldn't decide what to do, so I suggested my old stompin' grounds ;). My Grammar school was having their annual fair and I hadn't been in a few years, so we went.

We played booth games, rode rides and walked around. It was so simple but so nice. I even ran into a couple of old teachers that actually recognized me (it's been 14 years since they taught me). We had a couple beers there then headed over to a Bar & Grill to meet his cousin and shoot some pool. Okay correction, they shot pool, I drank a purple people eater ;). I got hit on by our Waitress...yes that' s right I said waitress o_O. I guess I was giving off the ' vibe' that night. Then him and I were going to go see a movie after that but we ended up just talking in the car and then going to another bar.

Okay so we didn't just talk in the car but its kind of hard not to just attack him :D haha. Well we ended up having "the talk", the one I have been dreading because I didn't know how he'd react...

I finally had to tell him about my living situation, which I was a lil' nervous about doing...I mean how do you tell a guy you like, "Uh hey by the way I still live with my Ex that I was sort of engaged too and was with for 5 years". But I couldn't put it off anymore because he wanted to help me out by coming to my house so I didn't have to drive so much...which is really sweet BUT CANNOT happen, haha. He actually took it quite well. I was surprised. He said he knew something was up (dude I am the WORST liar, you can see right through me, haha). He said I seemed like a trustworthy person and if I say me and him are done and JUST roommates he believes me. Aw :D. Anyways, that' s my story ;)

Date with a Lawyer :P

How do you tell someone to 'hush' or rather S.T.F.U. without being rude?

Ok so my godmother somehow talked me into meeting one of the Lawyers in her office. I didn't really want to go because 1. The last time I was set up by a family member it was disastrous and 2. I kinda like my internet guy (A LOT). Well I tell my godmother this but all she can say is, "Whaddaya got to lose?" And she's right internet guy and I are not 'exclusive' but still.

So I go meet this guy. He's very, um, nice. Ok I am being nice. He annoyed the crap outta me. So here is why I do not think I am interested.
1. He is 10 years older than me
2. He wanted to meet at a Coffee Shop
3. He is balding...a lot...and has a cover up thing going on (just shave it)
4. He's NEVER been in a super serious relationship...most were short
5. Oh and the kicker...He wouldn't stop talking...about himself!

Seriously I couldn't get a word in. I would start talking and he would actually interrupt me and start talking about himself. It was so annoying. So pretty much I sat there for a couple hours listening to him chat about...HIM. What ticked me off was we met at 7PM, I was flipping starving and he never once said wanna get a bite to eat. I would have paid for it, I don't care about that but I needed food! At one point he said he chose a Coffee Shop because he wanted me to feel comfortable. I said in my lil sarcastic voice, "Honestly I'm a lot more comfortable with a beer in my hand." Ha ha, then he said, I kid you not, "Note to self." OMG really!!! Like I said I could barely get a word in. Finally I interrupted him and said it's late I really have to go (it was a little after 9PM). He walked me to my car and I think expected a kiss, he got a hug. He asked for my number but before I could say anything he said never mind I have that from your Aunt. I was like GREAT, :P. So I left and immediately called my friend and told her everything, haha. I had to stop at McDonald's for food...I didn't want to eat fast food but I was DYING!

A Lemon Grew Legs and Tried to Attacked Me...

It's not even October yet...right?

Last night I was exhausted, so when I went to bed I was OUT like a light. Around 12 - 12:30 I heard a noise. I rolled over and saw the hall bathroom light on. I was like "Oh, my 'roommate' had to potty, whatever." He was in there a while so his dog got upset and came in the bed with me. I was just starting to fall back asleep when his dog JUMPED from a dead sleep to up on all fours in a split second. This crazy motion scared me and I jumped. Then he started sniffing (hound dog style) all over the bed, the other dogs and me. If a dog can looked confused/scared, that was the look he had. So I am like what the hell stupid dog. Then all of a sudden the cat, who was sleeping by my head went into stalking mode staring in his direction. Suddenly she leaps OVER my dog and starts rolling all over the foot of the bed. By this time I was out of the bed and like WHAT THE HELL IS IN MY ROOM?!?!?!? Mind you all I had time to turn on, until now, was the TV so it was very dark. The cat stopped rolling, jumped off the bed and ran down the hall...my roommates dog followed but only to the gate (he can't jump over it like she can).

I checked the ENTIRE room. I didn't see anything, so I settled down and tried to go back to sleep. Before I could relax I hear this commotion in the hallway. Its his dog going ballistic and the cat darting up and down the hall. Well I finally got up and me and my roommate ran into each other trying to see what was going on but we can barely see anything and the hall light is broken. The cat is at our end of the hall...she goes into crouching tiger stance. Suddenly she darts down the hall leaps at least 3 feet into the air and pounces on something at the other end of the hall. She skidded 4-5 feet with whatever it was pinned under her front paws. After about, oh I dunno, a second she starts beating the living daylights out of the floor. Well we ran down the hall to see what it was...it was a MASSIVE cockroach!!! And it was trying to get away from the psycho kitty that just tried to beat it into the floor, so what does it do...it runs straight to ME! So now I am running down the hall going "Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!". My roommate finally kills it and we all calm down. So all I can figure is it crawled on the dog (better him than me) and freaked him the heck out.

Well of course now I am totally freaked out because that is my phobia...I can deal with ANY other bug...not Roaches!!!!!! And it was in my bed...OMG!!!! So I tried to go to sleep but I was paranoid. I slept with the TV on, had in ear plugs (not bc of noise from the TV) and every few minutes I would get chills down my spine.

Well I FINALLY start to doze off again when I feel something touch my face..."AHHHHHHHH". I jumped up so fast but my two dogs had me pinned so I only sat up. I'm looking all over for another critter...it was a critter alright...my cat decided she wanted to nuzzle...it was her whiskers. I wanted to kick her butt, she scared the cah cah outta me! So yea I didn't really sleep good last night.

Drunk Dialings Bad, mmmk

Yea, we've all done it, HUSH!

The thing is I usually only drunk dial my friends...not last night, oh no I decided it was a good idea to drunk dial my internet guy. Who else here thinks that's a good idea...no one... ya sure? OK so here's the scoop.

Last night we went out for 4 of my friends birthdays. We decided to get them all done at once. So we went out to dinner. It was so much fun. We were just cutting up and talking about everything you could think of. I swear the older women next to us blushed a few times because of the topics of conversation, ah hem. Anyways at dinner we each had 2 martinis (yum). Then afterwards for some ungodly reason we decided we wanted to go hang out at a bar for a while.

So there we are drinking lots of beer and doing SHOTS, yes that's right I said shots. Who thinks its a good idea to do shots on a work night? Well evidently we thought it was a great idea last night :P. At some point my brain kicked in and I decided to check the time, it was 1AM... holy crap, I have to getup at 6am!!! So we all immediately left.

This is when my bright idea kicked in o_O. After dropping off one of the B-day girls I called my internet guy (at this point it was one fifteen in the morning). The funny part was that he actually answered, HA.

So we proceeded to have this "conversation"...let me rephrase that I proceeded to jabber and he laughed at me...A LOT. If you don't know I am a closed book when it comes to certain things. I do not talk openly about Sex, my sex life, etc etc etc with newbies. My girls, hell we have some crazy talks but new guy...yea not so much.

Well we had this talk...over the phone...while I was not drunk so to say but buzzing really good. Don't ask me how this came up but we talked about how many people we'd had SEX with, how long those relationships were, we talked about both being 'clean', the list goes on and on. At some point I made reference to the dress I was wearing and how I thought I needed help getting it off of me and I am pretty sure I asked for his assistance...seriously what was I thinking, haha. Anyways this morning when I crawled out of bed to go to work the converstaion came flooding back and well YEA I wanted to crawl in a hole, so I texted him saying "thanks for listening to my dumb ass last night, hope I wasn't too silly for you." He called, while I was driving to work. He is way too sweet, ahhhhhhhh. He said he loved talking to me and was glad I called. I told him I was so embarrassed (cuz I was) about the topics of conversation. He said I had nothing to be embarrassed about he said he was getting a kick out of me and thought it was adorable. OMG really?! He said he's kinda glad I talked about it while a little tipsy because it wasn't unconfortable at all, I was cracking jokes the whole time. Yáll know me I get goofy when I am "drunk". So he made me feel better so to say but I still feel like an A$$! I called this guy I actually kinda like and had a 30 minute converation with him about all kinds of sex stuff.

I am a goob! Haha.

I don't know what to think...

No really I'm a little confused!

OK so I went on yet another date with my Internet guy. He asked me to come over to his place to watch a movie/dinner. I was a little apprehensive about this one because we all know what most men think when a girl is coming over for the first time AND he lives with his mom and lil brother. I was trying to find every excuse in the book not to go. He somehow talked me into it!!!

I got there and I meet his mom and bro, which is WEIRD for me because I usually do not meet family members until we have been dating for a while. We've been talking since the very end of July and its only the beginning of September...not nearly long enough. Anyways, his mom had cooked. It was really good too. They left us to eat alone...so it was me him and their 3 little yippy dogs that barked at me the entire time. After we ate his mom was like I hope your not scared of them, I was like oh no, I have 3 VERY big dogs, ankle biters do not phase me - haha, its true!

A bit later he asked me if I wanted to go watch a movie...in his room. Can I just tell you how awkward that was for me?!? Its like "hey mom, I'm gonna take this girl you just met to my bedroom, k lata." I know, I know we are adults but its still uncomfortable. Not to mention what went through my head...we all know what goes on in the bedroom, ah hem.

We started watching a movie and I layed down the law REAL quick. He wasn't pushy or anything but he was a little touchy feely so, I figured I needed to make sure we were on the same page.

Don't get me wrong there was alot of making out but thats as far as it went. But then the weirdest thing happened. He looked at me, told me how much he liked me, how amazing he thought i was and wasn't sure how I felt but wanted to see if I wanted to take things to the next level. I think I gave him a funny look because he back tracked quickly and said "or we can get to know each other better and see what happens." I nodded to that part but I was confused. What was he talking about?!? Was he propositioning me for sex or was he asking me out? I really wasn't sure... I thought I made it clear sex was something that was out of the question...for a while, THATS a big step for me, especially if I like someone. So what was it, he never clarified what he was asking, he just snuggled up to me and we finished watching the movie.

I do not know what to think... any suggestions?!?!?!