I'm Engaged :D

Who thought that would ever happen...not me ;) hahaha


How did it happen:
Well on Christmas Eve we were hanging out at my house, wrapping the rest of the presents and waiting for Midnight. You see him and I decided that we will exchange on Christmas Eve at midnight so we aren't rushed on Christmas. Well while I was sitting on the floor wrapping and wrapping and wrapping, making all of the presents perfect and pretty, he was taking off price tags and being silly, keeping me company. Well around 11:00PM he started acting...odd. We both were having a glass of wine. At 11, he poured more wine...for both of us and was like drink up. I thought it was strange because he is not really a drinker but ok. Then he was in and out with the dogs like 10 times. Then he had TWO beers. I was like dude what is your deal. Now you might be saying, didn't I start to get suspecious, but no I didn't because I didn't think we would get engaged until next year....after or around our Disney Trip. Plus he is funny like that with Presents. . . he is always worried I won't like what he got me, silly boy. So no alarms were going off.

At midnight, on the dot he was like "lets exchange". Okee Dokee. He had this bright green, shiny bag. He put it next to me (I was sitting on my Love-seat). Then he said "*name* you know you mean alot to me, right". And I said "yeeeeees...." He then grabbed my hands and got really close to my face and proceeded to drop down on his knee and said "will you marry me". To which I replied "of course" and we kissed (aw ;) hahaaha). It was very simple and traditional and just like I imagined it would happen :D. So then I looked at the bag and reached for it but he said "wait wait wait, I have to explain something". Oooooooookay. He said "I talked to your mom and she wants us to use the diamonds in her ring. BUT her ring was in a lock-box at a bank and the box was lost after Katrina...but they found it she just has to make sure she has access to it." Luckily I knew about the lock-box...I didn't know why they were looking for it but I knew of the situation. So he said whats in there is a 'standin' until we can get her diamonds in the setting he picked out. So I open the box (from Jared ;) haha) and there is this gorgeous band with three sapphires and and three little diamonds. Its just so pretty. Then he showed me the setting he likes and its GORGEOUS and I cannot wait to get moms diamonds so I can wear it.

And before you ask, obviously he talked to my mom but yes he also talked to my dad and they are both thrilled. He's a great guy and we mesh really really well. Anyways that's my story, short and simple :).

MINE

I just love this song! :D

Taylor Swift Mine lyrics

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town and never looked back
I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin'
Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lyin' on the couch
The moment, I can see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothin' figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water?
You put your arm around me for the fist time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
Then, you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."

You said, "I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter.
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it

I can see it now

Stories I forgot to Post 4 - Crazy Night

I sometimes wonder why the WEIRDEST things happen to me!!!


1st Incident - My oldest dog got sick in his kennel while I was at work, so I had to clean that up. While I was doing that, my cat and the kitten were playing on the other side of my couch. Well the kitten still isn't very big and she can fit under the door to the Rottie's kennel. You know, if its open she can slid her skinny little body under it. Well she was doing that and swatting at my cat and being a silly little kitten. While I am cleaning I hear a terrifying meow come from the other side of the couch and then another....like both cats were screaming/meowing. So I yelledto my cat, stop trying to kill her! Well it got louder so I ran over and well yea. My cat is standing there meowing VERY loud and smacking the kitten but not hard just, swatting at her... The kitten is stuck....like 'OMG she is going to break her leg' stuck. Her head was under the door of the kennel. Her left leg was bent back and through one of the slots in the door. Her right leg was to the side and through a slot in the kennel base. She was FREAKING out!!! I have no idea how she got herself in this position but she was in it. So I had to carefully maneuver her and get one leg out at a time and then pull her from under the door. Even after I got her out my cat was still MEOWING at the top of her lungs following me around. The kitten was all nuzzled in my arms panting.... At first I thought my cat was being mean and beating the little one while she was stuck....but now that I think about it I think she was trying to get my attention/help her because she was stuck....my cat has NEVER sounded like that except when the Rottie stepped on her foot and popped her stitches. Kitten is fine now and was running all over playing in a few minutes but how she got herself in that predicament is beyond me.

2nd Incident - Around 9:20 I let the dogs out to go potty before I went shower. As usual the Rottie and my oldest dog did their thing and came in and my younger dog (the convict) wanted to wander and sniff and pee on every blade of grass....ya know since the rain washed away his scent *rolling eyes*. Anyways, I went inside to give the Rottie his pills and let the convict be for a second.

I went out there... no more than 1 minute later and I can't find my dog. Well he is notorious for going behind the shed and not coming when I call...especially if he smells that a cat has been back there. So I start calling for him...nothing. I walk over to the shed and whistle and call his name! But not too loud because it was getting a little late. I finally look at the fence....there is a board knocked out...so I ran full speed across the yard and out the side gate....bare foot.

I was in the front yard in seconds, yelling his name, come here boy, come on....*whistle whistle* come on buddy. He wasn't on the side of the house like last time...he was no where in sight. I saw some people down the street (like 6-7 houses down) so I started running, mind you NO SHOES, whistling and yelling a little louder than I probably should have been at that hour on a Tuesday night. FINALLY I hear his collar...the *ching ching ching* of his tags but I still don't see him. Then I hear one of the men down the street say "there ya go little buddy, shes' looking for you, you better get on now." He came running full speed at me (in true convict fashion) and about ran me over. I yelled SORRY and they said "S'all, right".

So we got back inside and I fussed him...BAD dog....of all the ones to escape it had to be the one with a record!!!!! So at 9:40 at night I was outside hammering nails back into the board that came loose....its pretty sturdy now....but REALLY needs to be replaced....I am sure the neighbors hated me but it had to be done....

Stories I forgot to Post 3 - Kitten 2

So it is actually possible to scare the 'piss' out of something...

Ok every morning when I am getting ready the kitten runs around, bouncing and playing and attacking. She usually climbs on the bed and just bounces all over like a Mexican jumping bean, usually with my cat but sometimes all by herself. Well today she was in total play mode bouncing, hiding under the sheets and making noises. I saw the Rottie I take care of watching her from the floor with his ears all perked up (nothing unusual there).

All of a sudden he jumped up with his head right next to her and barked. Not like a quiet *woof*....like *BARK!*. She stopped dead in her tracks, her eyes were HUGE and then she looked down at her bottom area. She was so confused....I picked her up really quick and threw the sheet off the comforter....a little seeped through so I cleaned it but she was horrified. She kept staring at her bottom all bug eyed like "What the hell just happened...?" I had to clean her because...well if you haven't figured it out, she pissed herself. And she is a cat and they don't like being icky. Even after I cleaned her and put her down she ran up on top the couch and begged to be held. So I of course scooped her up and she ran up my arm and hid under my hair. She wouldn't get down, I put on my makeup and finished getting ready with a 3lb kitten perched on my shoulders under my hair.

So I am thinking the Rottie was like "For God's sake just stop! Stop stop stop!" Hahaha...he's not used to something with more energy than him ;)

Stories I forgot to Post 2 - Kitten

I seriously think stray animals are drawn to me....

So I know the term is "look what the cat dragged in." But not in my house. Nope, in my house it's look what the dog dragged in. After I let the dogs out to potty one Saturday morning in Mid May I got one heck of a surprise. One of my dogs brought in a teeny tiny kitten. I mean I let them in walked to get their dishes to feed them and when I turned around there was this slobbery ball of fur near my back door being stared down by 3 dogs and a cat. I ran over to it and picked it up before one of them attacked it. It was the size of my hand (so super small)!!! I put it back out in my yard because I saw the momma and anther kitten. But the momma wouldn't come get her. I hoped that if I left she would come get it and take it back to wherever she had the litter.

It was out there for 4 hours while I was running errands all day. I got home during all the psycho weather over the weekend and well I couldn't leave it out there to die. So SUCKER over here took it in. Vet thinks it is only 4 weeks old...and needs to feed from a bottle. I think I definitely have sucker tattooed on my forehead.

Stories I forgot to Post 1 - Arachnaphobia

I'm not scared of Spiders...I don't like them but I'm not terrified of them...

(January 2010)

Ok so I just had the two ladies that work with me come in and say in very panicky voices "you, you , you need to go roll up your car windows... like right now!"

OK as most of you know it is GORGEOUS outside so of course my windows are down.

The younger one says "it's like, like that movie arachnophobia come to life...GIRL Your car is covered in spider webs."

Ok so now I am like, HAHAHA girls very funny :P . I am not really scared of spiders...I don't like them but I can deal. They were like "NO REALLY COME OUTSIDE!!!!" So I humor them and go..................

HOLY S**T, chills ran up my spine then back down. There is a massive web running from car to car (5 total in front) ACROSS the lawn to the mailboxes....the mailboxes are covered....across the concrete to the FRONT DOOR!!!! It's like a scene from a haunted house/horror movie. I battled my way through the web with a broom to roll up my windows.....but now I am paranoid!!! I saw the lil effers they are about the size of my finger nail and brown...not huge BUT big enough.

I am going to a painting class tonight with my boyfriends fam....I am going to have an ALMIGHTY stroke out if I am driving back home at 10:30 tonight and I get attacked by one that is trapped in my car.

Our mechanic is going out there to get rid of all the webs and check my car but I am still a little freaked out.. . .. .

Ever since I went out there I have like this nervous tick thing going on where i feel the need to shake out my hair....*shudder* stupid spiders!!!!!!

Ok thats my story......................

Why ask for my advice if you aren't going to listen???

I don't even know why I answered the phone. . .well technically I didn't answer on purpose but that's besides the point. You know who called today. . .ya know my ex roommate person. Well I said hello and it was downhill from there.

He complained about his job, like he always does when I actually answer, and this time I just wasn't in the mood to be calm. I kinda lost it. He always talks about this Executive that he has issues with at his new job out of state. According to him this person does not know what they are talking about and they are out to get him. As I calmly listened at first then he said "you know you used to be better at this whole advice thing." That was the mythical straw that broke the camels back. I said everything I'd been holding back.

I basically told him that this Executive is his boss and he has to play nice and I know from previous experience he doesn't know how to do that. He said he's never been rude to their face, to which I replied "One of their 'minions' , as you so kindly call them, told them you are impossible to work with. . .I am certain that affected her opinion of you at least a little." He said they just don't like being challenged and think they are always right. I was like so kind of like you...?

Long story short he is ready to leave this job he's only been at for 6 months all because he hates this executive and because the person that hired him left and went to a new company. . .he says "I moved there because of this guy not because I liked this company". Wow, really. . .WTF?! But the kicker is he doesn't want to jump to a new job because of the house. OK, I'm sorry what? How does owning 1/2 a house in another state affect you getting another job???

This is what he envisions. Walking into this Executive's office and saying paying me X amount of money or I am out. . .AFTER they already made it clear he's overpaid. I suggested NOT doing that but I am stupid and don't 'understand'. So he figures he'll be asked to leave, he doesn't plan on having another job in the wings so he plans on moving back here. He wil not have a job and he will fix the house in 4-6 weeks. . .the same house he had over 2 years to fix. Anyone see where my annoyance is coming from???

I of course argued BAD idea not just because I don't want him here but also because that is just DUMB. But he sees no issue with it. . .like its the most normal thing a person could say. His reason is, it will get done because he wants to get the house sold; get me taken care of; so he can buy a house where he is now....because (here is the kicker) he misses his dog!!! OK so you want to throw away your job, in this economy, because you want to fix a house you didn't bother fixing before because you want to buy a new house...WITHOUT a job so you can bring your dog with you. Makes sense right...?

Well I don't need a taking care of...I am just fine. The house I will HAPPILY fix but I still do not have the $$$ form the insurance company although he tells me "I'll make sure you get some of your money back..." What the hell does that mean?!?!!? To me that means, " I spent the money and don't want to send you a check for $$$$."

Ok thats my rant for the day. . .I am so annoyed!

I was being stung from the inside out. . .

Ok so it was just a dream . . . but how weird is this. . .

It was a very short but detailed dream. It was a gorgeous, sunny, spring day. I was sitting on a couch/lounger outside with my friends laughing and being silly as usual. During one of the outbursts of laughter I swallowed a WASP. Like you know how if your walking and talking and you swallow a nat. . .something like that but it was a WASP! I said "Oh my God I think I just swallowed a Wasp." As I cough and gagged trying to get it out. Friend twin 1 said "Oh you'll be fine. You'll digest it, no biggie...mmmm a little extra protein. Hahaha". I said "I dunno, I think I can feel it moving around..." I mean I could feel it in the dream like CRAWLING around in my stomach and it was the absolute weirdest feeling ever. I think a day went by and I swore I could still feel it and everyone was like you are CRAZY!

Then it happened. The most horrifying, painful thing happened. I bent over to pick something up and I was stabbed. . .from the inside out. I could see the stinger poking out of my abdomen and then suddenly it retracted. Then came out again in another area a little to the left. Same thing about 3 or 4 times. I was flipping out!!! My friends and boyfriend were like you are fine, no need to stress about it. I said "I am being stung by wasp that is inside of me!!!!!!" I said I think I need to go to the Dr. They all disregarded me and the conversation was done. Well this continued for the next day or so. Random stabbings whenever I would move weird and piss it off. But they were getting lower in my abdomen so I thought it was moving through my digestive system. I was like "It's not dying and I don't want to know whats going to happen when it gets to the, um end..."

Finally I convinced my boyfriend (younger guy) to bring me to the ER to have it removed. He said he would bring me but I'd have to wait till he got off of work. Well I was in my house waiting patiently trying not to move so I wouldn't get stabbed, when I had a "stomach attack" which is caused by my digestive issues. As I was attempting to NOT succumb to that call of nature I had a shooting pain in my back/side area. Then an uncomfortable feeling in my pants. No, I did not crap myself :P but when I pulled down my sweat pants I had a very much alive, BIGGER than average Wasp perched on my butt WALKING around. It was at least 1.5 inches long and about an inch thick. I vividly remember the feel of the insect legs on my skin *shudder*. Then out of NO WHERE my dumb dumb rottweiler snatches it off of me and runs off with his new 'toy'. I pulled up my pants and ran after him. He somehow got out the back door. He was trying to hide his face from me so I couldn't take it away. Meanwhile I am yelling, "Let it go dog. . . please. . . it's going to sting you!!!!" Then I woke up. Now what in the world do you make of that one...?

I"m not usually a violent person. . .

. . . but I could totally punch someone in the face right now!

Take a WILD guess who that would be. Me EX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aside from the normal crapola that gets my panties in a wad :P he has yet again proven to me that he is an idiot!

OK flash back to almost 5 years ago (in March). We bought the house right...? Anyways all was fine and dandy. Then we had a new year come around and things went a little batty. The heater started acting a little funny. By funny I mean it would not kick off even when in Auto mode. Well the heat would go off but the fan stayed blowing. This happened a few times but not alot. Then the next winter it decided to RANDOMLY shift itself from normal heat to Em Heat. At that time I had no clue what that meant... at that point my Ex called out a repair guy to look at it. He said the guy said the thermostat was going out and that Em Heat was a safety mode it went into. And that it would cost alot of money to fix...an easy way to keep it from running all day was to TRIP THE CIRCUIT BREAKER. This went against my better judgment and I questioned it...but being the trusting moron that I am I believed him and we went about our business. Also every year we were getting it serviced and had the ducts cleaned out recently so I surely thought that a repair guy would say something if something was wrong.

OK flash forward to yesterday. I wake up and turn the heater on. . .nada just a clicking noise. I was running late so I turned it off and went to work. Last night I got home and was FREEZING so I tried again. Again just this weird clicking noise. I let it sit for a sec thinking it would kick on. Then this WEIRD smell filled the house and I panicked and turned it off again. I opened the closet where the indoor unit is and there was a low squealing noise... effing fantastic. So I called out a repair guy, who thankfully could make it over first thing in the morning. YAY!

This is the part where my blood pressure skyrocketed. They started looking at it and determined the blower motor was burnt out and maybe other things but the motor was why nothing clicked on. After further inspection he very sternly told me that I should really have my unit serviced every year. *with a baffled expression* huh. He said this unit looks like it hasn't been serviced in quite a few years. He showed my the screens and the blower fan. They were COVERED in a 2+ inch layer if dust and fur. It was disgusting. He said having just one dog generates lots of dander and fur so that's why it looks like this. He said this happens over time (the filters catch most of it) but it will build up and cause the system to overheat bypassing the compressor and causing the fan to keep running and the Em Heat to come on. He also took me to the inside and outside units and explained EVERYTHING they did. Told me what Em Heat actually was and why I didn't want to use it.

So it was just the motor. Once he got it all put back together that sucka was blowing really really really hard, I was impressed. Then my blood pressure went up again.... as the stronger force of air went through the vents it blew all kinds of clumps of dust out of every vent in the house. It was disgusting. So after I paid the nice repair man I called my Ex to let him know he owed me half :P. I told him everything and he said "so I guess you figured out the unit was never serviced." Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I didn't have the patience to even fight, I told him what he owed me and to send a check and hung up.

Are you kidding me.... for almost 5 years the effing thing has NEVER been looked at. No repair man EVER came out to look at it...he just figured out how to get it to shut off. The ducts were never cleaned. If it would have been serviced every year...that's about $100 or so depending on how long it takes not that bad ... this cost over $450!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its not highway robbery BUT the guy also cut me a deal. He didn't charge me for labor just for the part. Had labor been included that would have been another $200....$650 total. Why why why why why lie about that!?!?! I am so pissed not just because it cost me $$$ to fix but because my instincts told me that wasn't right. Had I just taken charge it would all have been done regularly.....

To Speak or not to speak....

..that is the question rolling through my head right now....

Happy New Year!

Okay so why am I not speaking ;) Hmmm lets see. As you know I am in a pretty serious with younger guy. Both our families are planning our wedding and have been for a few months now ;) No pressure right...? Anyways the subject definitely has come up and it doesn't scare me in the least or him from what I can tell. He is always saying things about when we get married and when we have kids and in the future etc etc etc. So he seems to see what me and everyone else does which is good. His mom thought for sure he was giving me a ring for Christmas which I knew was not happening but she was sad that it didn't, good lord. I mean we both seem to want it but are taking it slow for obvious reasons (we both got burned pretty bad :P).

Anyways the other day he said something that made me kinda sad. We were hanging out at his best friends house waiting for dinner. His friend is a computer guru and just got a new touch screen for his kitchen so he can look up stuff while he's cooking...I was jealous ;). Anyways of course my guy was playing with the new computer...it was a touch screen so I get it , haha. Well I was in the bathroom and his friends wife was feeding their little girl (she's 1.5 years....soooo CUTE!). Well when I came out the wife was like "Um do you know what he was looking at over there?" I was like Huh...? Who.. what...? And my guy was like *in an shy-ish voice* "I just wanted her to see that you can get nice stuff for less money if you are smart..." He was looking at rings....which caught me off guard but then he said something that kinda stung... He said "Geez *friends wife* I am being smart this time, it will be at least two years before I think about proposing." She looked at me and asked how long we were together...I said almost 10 months. She said "Really...? That's it?! I swore you'd been around much longer... I guess yáll just seem so comfortable with each other... *averting her attention to my guy* still 2 years.... REALLY?! You are weird." His friend looked confused as well.

Honestly I understand....I am in NO WAY expecting or wanting a ring right now. It just stung to know that even though our relationship is TOTALLY different that his ex fiance and him he thinks the reason they didn't work is because they got engaged after a year of dating. He has made that comment before, I am not assuming anything. But its like he thinks if we move quick like that we will follow that same path. My ex an I were together for 3 years when he said "hey lets get married" and we split 7 months later ... that does not mean I think the same will happen to us. But I never said a thing, I just rolled over it and started talking to Friends Wife again while she eyed my guy from a distance burning a hole in the back of his head, haha. I think she might like me ;). I guess that sting I felt was the same sting I felt before. The doing things because you think your supposed to do it that way instead of because you want to. Does that make any sense?! I guess I just hate being punished because some other chick effed up...its almost as bad as not getting what I want/need because no one else ever taught the person that you should/shouldn't do/say that (I'm talking about me being the 'learning curve' for my ex...it SUCKED).

So I don't know what to do. I want to be like relax dude and just go with the flow. Don't put time lines they just make things complicated. But I don't want him to think I am pressuring for the next step because I really think that if he gave me The Ring tomorrow I would pass out on the floor in fear. Okay maybe not that bad but it would be TOTALLY unexpected and a little too fast for me, there would be definite hyperventilation. I know bad bad bad but I guess I am a little guarded still too.

Sooooooooo I don't think I will do/say anything...unless it comes up again...then I may try to carefully get my point across...easier said than done... maybe silence is better :P