I"m not usually a violent person. . .

. . . but I could totally punch someone in the face right now!

Take a WILD guess who that would be. Me EX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aside from the normal crapola that gets my panties in a wad :P he has yet again proven to me that he is an idiot!

OK flash back to almost 5 years ago (in March). We bought the house right...? Anyways all was fine and dandy. Then we had a new year come around and things went a little batty. The heater started acting a little funny. By funny I mean it would not kick off even when in Auto mode. Well the heat would go off but the fan stayed blowing. This happened a few times but not alot. Then the next winter it decided to RANDOMLY shift itself from normal heat to Em Heat. At that time I had no clue what that meant... at that point my Ex called out a repair guy to look at it. He said the guy said the thermostat was going out and that Em Heat was a safety mode it went into. And that it would cost alot of money to fix...an easy way to keep it from running all day was to TRIP THE CIRCUIT BREAKER. This went against my better judgment and I questioned it...but being the trusting moron that I am I believed him and we went about our business. Also every year we were getting it serviced and had the ducts cleaned out recently so I surely thought that a repair guy would say something if something was wrong.

OK flash forward to yesterday. I wake up and turn the heater on. . .nada just a clicking noise. I was running late so I turned it off and went to work. Last night I got home and was FREEZING so I tried again. Again just this weird clicking noise. I let it sit for a sec thinking it would kick on. Then this WEIRD smell filled the house and I panicked and turned it off again. I opened the closet where the indoor unit is and there was a low squealing noise... effing fantastic. So I called out a repair guy, who thankfully could make it over first thing in the morning. YAY!

This is the part where my blood pressure skyrocketed. They started looking at it and determined the blower motor was burnt out and maybe other things but the motor was why nothing clicked on. After further inspection he very sternly told me that I should really have my unit serviced every year. *with a baffled expression* huh. He said this unit looks like it hasn't been serviced in quite a few years. He showed my the screens and the blower fan. They were COVERED in a 2+ inch layer if dust and fur. It was disgusting. He said having just one dog generates lots of dander and fur so that's why it looks like this. He said this happens over time (the filters catch most of it) but it will build up and cause the system to overheat bypassing the compressor and causing the fan to keep running and the Em Heat to come on. He also took me to the inside and outside units and explained EVERYTHING they did. Told me what Em Heat actually was and why I didn't want to use it.

So it was just the motor. Once he got it all put back together that sucka was blowing really really really hard, I was impressed. Then my blood pressure went up again.... as the stronger force of air went through the vents it blew all kinds of clumps of dust out of every vent in the house. It was disgusting. So after I paid the nice repair man I called my Ex to let him know he owed me half :P. I told him everything and he said "so I guess you figured out the unit was never serviced." Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I didn't have the patience to even fight, I told him what he owed me and to send a check and hung up.

Are you kidding me.... for almost 5 years the effing thing has NEVER been looked at. No repair man EVER came out to look at it...he just figured out how to get it to shut off. The ducts were never cleaned. If it would have been serviced every year...that's about $100 or so depending on how long it takes not that bad ... this cost over $450!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its not highway robbery BUT the guy also cut me a deal. He didn't charge me for labor just for the part. Had labor been included that would have been another $200....$650 total. Why why why why why lie about that!?!?! I am so pissed not just because it cost me $$$ to fix but because my instincts told me that wasn't right. Had I just taken charge it would all have been done regularly.....

To Speak or not to speak....

..that is the question rolling through my head right now....

Happy New Year!

Okay so why am I not speaking ;) Hmmm lets see. As you know I am in a pretty serious with younger guy. Both our families are planning our wedding and have been for a few months now ;) No pressure right...? Anyways the subject definitely has come up and it doesn't scare me in the least or him from what I can tell. He is always saying things about when we get married and when we have kids and in the future etc etc etc. So he seems to see what me and everyone else does which is good. His mom thought for sure he was giving me a ring for Christmas which I knew was not happening but she was sad that it didn't, good lord. I mean we both seem to want it but are taking it slow for obvious reasons (we both got burned pretty bad :P).

Anyways the other day he said something that made me kinda sad. We were hanging out at his best friends house waiting for dinner. His friend is a computer guru and just got a new touch screen for his kitchen so he can look up stuff while he's cooking...I was jealous ;). Anyways of course my guy was playing with the new computer...it was a touch screen so I get it , haha. Well I was in the bathroom and his friends wife was feeding their little girl (she's 1.5 years....soooo CUTE!). Well when I came out the wife was like "Um do you know what he was looking at over there?" I was like Huh...? Who.. what...? And my guy was like *in an shy-ish voice* "I just wanted her to see that you can get nice stuff for less money if you are smart..." He was looking at rings....which caught me off guard but then he said something that kinda stung... He said "Geez *friends wife* I am being smart this time, it will be at least two years before I think about proposing." She looked at me and asked how long we were together...I said almost 10 months. She said "Really...? That's it?! I swore you'd been around much longer... I guess yáll just seem so comfortable with each other... *averting her attention to my guy* still 2 years.... REALLY?! You are weird." His friend looked confused as well.

Honestly I understand....I am in NO WAY expecting or wanting a ring right now. It just stung to know that even though our relationship is TOTALLY different that his ex fiance and him he thinks the reason they didn't work is because they got engaged after a year of dating. He has made that comment before, I am not assuming anything. But its like he thinks if we move quick like that we will follow that same path. My ex an I were together for 3 years when he said "hey lets get married" and we split 7 months later ... that does not mean I think the same will happen to us. But I never said a thing, I just rolled over it and started talking to Friends Wife again while she eyed my guy from a distance burning a hole in the back of his head, haha. I think she might like me ;). I guess that sting I felt was the same sting I felt before. The doing things because you think your supposed to do it that way instead of because you want to. Does that make any sense?! I guess I just hate being punished because some other chick effed up...its almost as bad as not getting what I want/need because no one else ever taught the person that you should/shouldn't do/say that (I'm talking about me being the 'learning curve' for my ex...it SUCKED).

So I don't know what to do. I want to be like relax dude and just go with the flow. Don't put time lines they just make things complicated. But I don't want him to think I am pressuring for the next step because I really think that if he gave me The Ring tomorrow I would pass out on the floor in fear. Okay maybe not that bad but it would be TOTALLY unexpected and a little too fast for me, there would be definite hyperventilation. I know bad bad bad but I guess I am a little guarded still too.

Sooooooooo I don't think I will do/say anything...unless it comes up again...then I may try to carefully get my point across...easier said than done... maybe silence is better :P